This time, i had a fluctuating mixed of emotion...one day ok , another day ko. Abah was somehow quite different. his interest in sports ( watching TV only) made him unaware of my crave for attention mood. I had bouts of headache very often, leading me to feel so uncomfortable. only those who are pregnant will understand this. this is not main main...along was getting very active and my free time was very limited.
Unable to make abah understand, i resorted to writing letters..many pages of papers used and to add the special effect, more dried tears dotted the paper.....abah was so scared every time he got the letter coz i really poured out my feeling...i dont care......well after that abah was ok, helpful and more attentive.
One day, SM Kota Bharu had a cross country day. One student went berserk, running here and there hysterically and suddenly she entered the staffroom, the place where i was relaxing. I was so scared looking at her. In tears, i was sent home by Mdm Ruhana ( where are you now?). if i am not mistaken, it was Thursday. 2 days after that, akak was delivered at Kota Bharu Hospital.
Tok was there to help..she was so surprised to see akak .....hmmmm....akak was a bit ....you know...not that fair compared to along....depa tukar anak hang kot......ish mak ni.....even mak jah the babysitter was also confused.....hey...hello....this is my daughter...whatever the skin colour is, she came from my womb......
This continued over and over. when we went home during school holidays, people kept asking why she was ...different....i dont understand why some people can be so blunt, so heartless....they always see the appearance....this was really haunting akak until one day she said to her younger siblings......dont take too much kicap( soya sauce) nanti gelap macam akak.......................i was really upset with this coz to me and abah...she is ours regardless the skin, regardless the appearance.....
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